Chapter 1021 - Heaven And Earth Opening: Graveyard Of The Gods (4)
Chapter 1021
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Shin Jiao opens his eyes and two women with almost identical faces are looking at him. One has a kind and gentle disposition, while the other has a serious and cold temperament.
He extended his hands and caressed their faces.
"Ugh… Lou… Susan… Am… Am I dreaming? Is… Is this real?" he muttered as he lovingly caressed their soft cheeks.
The two women are mothers of his children. Qin Lou gave birth to Ju-long Jiao which grew up to be a strong and responsible young man. Shin Jiao's regret is not being with his wife and son when he was growing up.
He has spent his time lost and amnesiac while on earth.
He tried to cope up with this by providing them a good and nice future, but he already know that it is not as important as being with them in their struggles. This is one of his regrets in his life.
And then comes Susan Tang, she's the woman whom he has loved and the two of them has a daughter. However, he was not able to stay as he was taken to the immortal land and is only with her for days. This is another one of his regrets.
"I am sorry for the suffering I brought the two of you…" he said in a low voice.
He knew that he is not a worthy husband and a worthy father. He knew his mistakes and tries to pay for them in his own way… But everything he does still draws him away from them.
"Shin… It's okay… I know that you have your difficulties, but… but that does not warrant you the right to leave us over and over again… You… you should be ashamed of yourself. You said you love us, and yet you choose to leave. Why? Why would you choose to leave than to stay? Why? Why? Why?" both Qin Lou and Susan Tang began to say.
Their expression turned into anger and then they began to berate Shin Jiao.
Shin Jiao could not say anything as he knew that it was his own mistake why this has happened. One wrong decision after another leads to him leaving his own family.
"I'm sorry…" those are the only words that escaped his mouth.
"Sorry? Sorry does not count that!" Qin Lou shouted as her expression turned unsightly.
He could tell the hatred and the anger in her eyes as she glared at him.
He did not understand why this is happening. But Shin Jiao knew that deep in his heart, this is all true. It was all his fault.
In the midst of the scolding and his remorse, Shin Jiao's tears began pouring out as he felt sad and depressed deep in his heart.
"I… I must correct the wrongs… I must… I should not have been… with them." He thought as his heart turned heavy and helplessness overcame him.
Why is he doing this? Why does he need to work hard for his family when he has left them to fend for themselves? He is an absentee father and he has no right to say that he is doing this because he loves them when his own family does not truly feel that said love.
From the words of the two women berating him, he knew that what he is doing is wrong. But how could he correct his own mistake? How can he rectify his wrong decision?
Then suddenly, he remembers someone telling him that once you are about to die, you will remember all of the regrets you have in your life. And you would truly wish to do everything you can to change those wrongs and make them right once again. And this is what they call suffering in hell. And endless torment and torture of realizing things the right way, but is unable to do it.
One can only grit and gnash their teeth in remorsefulness suffering deep in their hearts and unable to continue on living.
Some called this Calvary, some called this hell, and cultivators called this… their heart demons.
"Heart… heart demons? No… I'm not dead yet!" Shin Jiao suddenly thought as he realized something.
He truly has heart demons, and that is his constant regret. But then in his memories, he remembers what Susan Tang said…
"You are not bound to me… So live your own life and be happy."
"Being bound? What does that mean?" he thought as his mind began to recall the things that he has done.
The deity on earth has done a lot of things just to save the human race. And he taught them many principles that could make a human live an easier life. He thought them true karmic values which would make them feel happy in the afterlife.
While recalling those truths, Shin Jiao's heart slowly became calm and his mind slowly reached new tranquility. He did not expect that those simple truths that he casually heard on earth would make his heart calm at this point in time.
He could not help but thank that kind and caring deity that is watching over earth. He came from the earth, so he is one of that deity's offspring.
"I guess this is what it means to be a true father." He thought.
He knew his mistakes and swore in his heart to rectify them if he has a chance. And right now, that is what his goal should be. Removing his heart demons would make him stronger.
As his mind reached tranquility, his surroundings suddenly became quiet and Shin Jiao could not help but slowly open his eyes.
When his eyes opened, he saw the starry skies. Then he could feel a strong aura surrounding him and the rich universe energy in his surroundings.
Suddenly, Shin Jiao stopped moving as he felt the strength in his body has changed. He seems to be stronger and the energy in his dantian is richer and more abundant than ever.
"This… did I just reached the High Lord's realm…" he thought as he counted the spheres in his dantian.
There are now 86 spheres inside of his dantian and the formation of the 86th sphere made everything changed. It is not like in the lord's realm. Although a lord is powerful and stronger, yet reaching the high lord realm is different.
It is far different than anything he has felt before. He everything around him is truly different, it was as if his mind has been open to the truth of all things around him.
"Oh, you're awake!…" suddenly a beautiful female voice interrupted Shin Jiao's musings.
When he turns his sight to the source of the voice, he saw a very beautiful petite woman wearing a long white gown. The gown hands on the woman's neck exposing her fair and snow-white shoulders which look beautiful and elegant.
Her long flowing silver hair made her look like a fairy. Her beautiful angelic face made her seem amicable and kind, and yet one gaze from her phoenix eyes could make one feel guilty of their sins.
In one word, Shin Jiao knew that he is now in front of a real-life deity.
"Your holiness…" Shin Jiao could not help but blurt and tried to quickly get out of the bed and bow.
But this movement made him wince in pain as he felt his left arm and side ache.
"Do not be too formal. I am not a deity… well… not anymore." She said with a smile.
Shin Jiao was a bit baffled by those words. Her aura is clearly above what Shin Jiao could determine. With his cultivation reaching the High Lord's realm, he could tell the cultivation level of the saints clearly up to that of a deity.
However, the woman in front of him is clearly beyond that.
This woman clearly has cultivation that is higher than that of a deity.
"Your… your holiness…" Shin Jiao helplessly sits on the bed and found that half of his body is wrapped in bandages.
This made him feel baffled once again. In the immortal land, one does not need bandages as there are pills that could make one recover their wounds almost instantly. Plus many immortals do not fear death. Well, not in front of a demon or a Shadow Being that is.
"Where… where am I…" he asked curiously as he does not recognize this part of the forest.
"This place… this place is called the Graveyard of the Gods…" she said as she walks beside Shin Jiao bringing with her a small bowl.
Shin Jiao was stunned. How did he come to this place? He was a few thousand kilometers away from the Heaven and Earth city, and now he just lost consciousness and he is now in the middle of the Heaven and Earth opening? How did this happen?
"I know that you have tons of questions in your mind. But I assure you that no matter how much you think about it, you cannot find your answers. I would only say that this is how fate works. I too do not know the answer of all things. Maybe only the true gods in the higher realms could give you that answer." She said as she sits beside the makeshift wooden bed.
She carefully handed Shin Jiao the steaming bowl and gestured for him to drink.