Chapter 39 39. Alia's Past
"Hiss~"
Alia who was sitting on the luxurious sofa took a cold breath as she tried to apply pain relief balm on her red swollen private part
The lower part of the sore and burning with sharp pain hitting her senses. She now can barely move her leg much less walk, Only she knew how she managed to walk to the living room to grab her phone.
But she was not mad or had any resentment towards Alex. She didn't blame him a bit.
She decided to enter his room on her own and do those things, So she also had to face the consequences of it. That's her ideology.
If something happened to you, It was the consequence of your own series of actions. No matter if it's good or bad, You can't blame others for it, That's why she is this controlling, And the reason why she didn't blame Alex.
This sweet pain is always welcome for the consequences of her actions over the events of that day. She will never repeat the same mistake again, Never.
Alia opened a gallery on the phone and pressed one individual picture and looked at it with nostalgia and pain in her eyes.
This picture got opened and the whole screen was occupied by the figure of a little handsome man.
His face was 3 points similar to Alia. From his looks, he was quite young with a very happy smile on his face.
"I-I am so-sorry, I am so sorry brother."
She held her phone tightly in her embrace and sobbed, A ice queen, an emotionless monster for the world, A woman who titled as crazy by others because of her persona now crying pitifully like a little girl.
The man in the picture is or was her younger brother. A middle child between her and Rose.
She used to dote on him, He was sent to study abroad with her at a very young age, Rose was at that time just a little 1-year infant.
Although he was adopted by her family, she used to love him as her blood brother. Her mother had misandry, So she didn't even want to go near him. In that house only she was close to him. He used to run around her back like her little tail.
Wherever she went, He was with her. So the duo of she who was 3 years old and he who was 2 ½ years old were always seen together.
She was also lonely in that house, Her mother was always busy handling office affairs, As for her father? She never met him. He was dead after some time when she was born, Also because of her inherent cold personality other people and servants in the mansion stayed away from her afraid of offending her.
So he is with her keeping her away from that loneliness. She was happy he was there as he didn't care about her cold personality.
When they sent them to study abroad, She didn't show it on her face but she was scared, But thankfully he was there for her.
If not, She didn't know how she was able to manage in that unknown territory. She is not very good at communication. So he was not only her brother but also a only friend.
"It was all my fault, *Sob* If I was careful If I didn't let you do that. That will never happen."
Alia is overwhelmed by her emotions, It's hard to imagine that someone like her can also have this weak side.
When she had time, She opens his image, Not for remembering him but to torture herself. Not a single day passed in which she didn't remind herself that she was responsible for his death.
She was the sole reason why he died. If not for her he was alive and happy. If she took control of the situation in her hand at that time. He was with her right now.
They spent 5 years living abroad. Those years, although not that good but not bad either, She learned a lot. Surprisingly she was quite a fast learner.
Their life was going fine. Like every child at that age, They were carefree and full of innocence. They often used to play all day after school until they fell asleep in the garden behind the mansion made for them.
Their caretakers had to always carry them to bed. Those days were the best days in her life. She used to feel happy, sad, angry, all the emotions like all humans.
But that incident turns her into an emotionless monster. She knows she is a monster. Only a monster word is suitable to describe current her.
It was that incident that made her like this, The biggest regret of her life, and the moment she changed completely.
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"Jake!! We should go now or the teacher will be worried."
An 8-years old loli Alia walks behind a boy around the same-age as hers, Yelling at him to turn back to their camp.
They were on a school trip here to camp. So Jake, a younger brother of Alia, dragged her to explore the surroundings on their own.
He developed tomgirl personality right now, So he was always used to doing some wild things like this one before but for his stunt she was worried.
Although there were no big predators or venomous animals in this place, it was still not safe to wander around in unknown areas. They might get lost or at least they would worry their teacher and get scolded.
"Come on big sis, I promise we just explore this little part near the river and we will go back, Anyway it's night right now, We can go back later. The teacher will not even know we are missing."
Jake, who was a head taller than Alia, turned around and spoke to her.
At this age, men grow faster than women. Only when the growth hormone in women kicks in, They start to grow like a wild bamboo.
"No!! We didn't know what was ahead. If you want we can come back here tomorrow, but for now let's go back."
Alia didn't budge, She was older here, So she had to be the reasonable one and stop his wayward actions.
If not for he is right now physically stronger than her, She has long since dragged him back to camp other than wasting her breath here arguing.
"Come on, Don't be like that big sis. I thought you were a courageous girl, But I think I was wrong."
Jake didn't want to go back, He wanted to see the river shore. They are so close to seeing the river, He can't turn away now.
He knew how to handle this Alia, So he started taunting her. This trick always worked as it was used and tested countless times by him.
"I- I am not a wuss. I am a brave girl".
Alia strengthened her flat chest and answered him. She is not a wuss, She is a brave girl.
Jake's words are quite effective on her simple mind of this age, So she easily falls into his trick.
"No, you are not brave, If you are brave. You come with me to check there."
He easily sees his big sis has been tricked by him, So he tries to provoke her more. He wanted to go there and see the river at night. For some reason, he had this extreme yearning to go there.
But he was afraid of going there alone at night, That's why he dragged Alia with him. After all, he was a child too.
"But teac- "
"Pakk Pakk, Alia is a chicken~. "
"I am not chicken."
"Pak pakka pakka."
"Stop!! I am not chicken."
"Alia is Chicken pak pakka."
"Okay fine, We go but we just take a peek and come back quickly."
Alia still had some sense remaining, So he still wanted to go back but Jake didn't give her a chance to speak and started to call her chicken.
He knows she hates when someone calls her chicken, This was his trump card, He knows she will definitely agree now.
And that's what happened, Even though Alia was more sensible than other children, At the end of the day she still was just a little girl, So she wasn't able to bear someone calling her a chicken.
So she agreed to go with him, A decision she will regret all her life.
"That's good, I love you big sis."
Jake got happy and wanted to hug her but she had a cleanliness freak OCD perk, So how could he be able to hug her? Alia in a swift move dodged his hug and walked ahead.
"Hehe~ "
Jake wasn't embarrassed by her actions. He is used to her acting like this. He just rubs his back and giggled before he quickly catches up with her.
"It's very beautiful, isn't it big?"
They finally reached the river, A sound of a strong current of water was both terrifying and enchanting to hear.
A full moon comes out of the dark clouds, Illuminating the whole place, adding a different charm to this celestial scenery.
"It's very beautiful."
Alia was stunned to see this beauty of nature, For a moment worry in her heart disappeared and only appreciation for this view remained.
"Let's take a closer look at the water."
Jake had the urge to get close to it. He didn't understand why but this urge was very strong. This indescribable feeling blocked off all the fear in his heart and he walked close to the shore.
"Jake stop, Don't go near or I will leave you alone."
Alia was startled by his actions, She wanted to grab him to stop his action but she was too late. He was already walked outside of her hand range.
She knew she was not strong enough to drag him back, So she also used her words to threaten him. This way he will come back as she also knew his weak point was that he was afraid of the dark.
"Please just wait a minute, I just wanted to take a look."
But he didn't take her words seriously, All his attention was on going there on the shores of this river.
"Jake, I will go away, Look I am going now."
Alia got frustrated when he ignored her, So to try and show him that she really meant it she turned her back on him and started walking towards the camp area.
*Splash*
She only took a few steps before she heard the sound of something or someone falling into the river.
This sound stopped her in their tracks, She rigidly turned her neck around in the direction of shore just to see that there was no figure of Jake anywhere.
Her brain stopped working, She didn't understand what she was seeing, Her brain didn't allow her to face this reality at all.
"JACK!!!"
She stared at that empty place for a few seconds before a fearful worried cry of shout escaped from her mouth.
(A/N : Like always thank you for reading and have a good day �.