Be Eaten Up with Love

"Taking what we need from each other, what a nice words! Lydia, what kind of
woman I have not met! If you are at least a little smart then you must know that
you will not get any good ending if you use me." His lips were pulled and he
looked at me sneering.
"Wayne, is that because you are falling in love with me since you care about the
reason that I get in relation with you?"
I saw him pulled a cigarette from the box, lighted it up and smoked for several
times. In the smoke, I saw the elegant face of him and he looked at me with a
sneering sight. It seemed like what I said was a kind of funny joke.
"Lydia, you are feeling so good about yourself. Where you get that I fall in love
with the kind of woman like you who has a impure mind? You fucked you several
times only because your body fits my taste!"
This was the first time that I heard the rude words from him, explaining the
relationship between us with such dirty words.
I did a self-mockery with a smile. I was really out of my mind these time. Merlin
was right. If a man was being vicious to you, a random words could stab and hurt
you easily. Wayne only saved me once and did good to me in daily life. Spoiled
me, indulged me so all those made me feeling presuming that he fell in love with
me!
The man like him would indulge you and protect you if he was happy. When you
violated his wish, the relationship between you and him would break down
instantly!
It had to always be remembered that, between me and him, we were only buddy
calls. We could never be lovers. Our body could badger with each other but our
hearts would never be together.

" Since we are buddy calls, you play with my body, why don't I use you to
revenge on Geoffrey? You are ruthless to me and you dare to want me to fall in
love with you deeply and fuck for free?"
My heart went cold completely. It was hurt and trembling with a tearing pain.
He may never expected me to refute him straightly like this. He glared at me with
his eyes wide open," Get away from my sight!"
I saw the indifference from his eyes, turned around with a firm hand and walked
away without turning back my head.
After I got out from Wayne's home, the tears I endured for a long time flowed
down, crying as I was walking. I was aggrieved like a little abandoned pity. I lost
myself and went back to my rent little home. I was stupefied and sat on the bed,
my helpless sight was full of vast and hazy.
I stayed at home in the next two days. I did not get out of my home except buying
some food outside. I had to heal the wounds on my face and the wounds in my
heart by the way!
I lived in chaos for two days. Wayne did not contact me at all in these two days. I
looked at the missed calls. There were only calls from Merlin and Katherine. The
number with a four eight ending had never appeared again.
I knew, the proud man like Wayne, would weed me out immediately when he was
hurt by the raised thorn of mine.
It did not have to be suspicious of I became a past lover from a new one.
It was a lie to say that I was not sad. We were together for all those nights
anyway. It left a wound on my heart somehow. But my ability of recovering was
very good. The wound was recovered by myself with a short time.
Since I became a ex-buddy call, it was making sad mood for nothing to keep the
number. Since Wayne cut the connection with me, it should be cut totally.

Keeping the number, what if I had something wrong with my fingers and made a
worry call...
I found his number in my phone, after a short hesitating, I put the number in the
blacklist finally, left it with the number of Geoffrey.
Then I found the number of Chief James I saved before and called it.
The information of me and Wayne broke up had not spayed out at the moment so
I had to find the trace of my sister in hurry. Chief James was a good way.
I had worked on wording for a long time and then I explained what happened
carefully," Chief James, I knew that this is a difficult one, but could you get
around regulations and help me with this!"
"Miss Toland, the case had past 14 years. The only suspect caught had already
dead. And the evidences were already ruined totally. The chance of finding your
sister is little. I advise you to investigate from other ways. Your father offended a
lot of people before. You can investigate from that and you may find some clues."
I had a bitter smile. I already tried the suggestion of Chief James. But the people
my father offended before had already became some big shots now. They were
either raising ranks in the officialdom, or dominating in business.
As for me, how could I fight with them?
"Chief James, to be honest, I already tried the method you said. But the people
that my father offended are not kinds of people that I could fight with now. That's
why I would like to ask you to check the traffickers caught these years!"
Chief James sighed," Miss Toland, the suspects who already in the jail will not
admit the guilt they made in the past again. Only a stupid one will do the thing
that will make their punishment heavier! Therefore, investigate from the police
system is nearly impossible."
Chief James was right. The case was like walking into a dead end.

Then, Chief James said something to persuade me to give up. He sent his
respect to Wayne then hung up the phone.
I saw the screen of the phone became dark and shrunk in the sofa powerlessly.
The only hope turned to hopeless now.
This really hurt me a lot. I was ill at the night. I got fever with a body temperature
of 40 degree centigrade and I was dizzy since the fever. Even more, I was to
absent-minded that I saw the illusion of Wayne sitting on the end of my bed.
I assumed I was too ill. I felt faintly Wayne taking care of me without sleeping or
resting for the whole night. He cleaned my body for me and lower my heat by a
warm towel and fed me pills. Finally, he even held me in arms and read the novel'
Please love me deeper my president' that put on the end of my bed.